Last Day of School
Left a ripple on Tuesday, January 22, 2008 @ 1:17 AM
That's it. The end of school life. And I'm not even 23. It's over. Gone. Vamoos. Whether I'd treasured life in school or not, it's all gone.
Here's my timeline of formal education.
4 yrs: YMCA Childcare Centre
6 yrs: MSHS Pre-primary School
7- 12 yrs: MSHS Pri School
13-16 yrs: MSHS Sec Sch
17-20 yrs: TP
21-23 yrs: RMIT
2008. I'd probably take up post-graduate studies, but that isn't the same anymore. Even in university, taking a part-time course definitely isn't the same as taking a full-time one. I don't know what I missed and I'd probably never know.
I don't know if advancing so quickly in life is what I really wanted, even though it'
s a good thing. Maybe I didn't get the chance to have my share of fun, of full-fledged college life like most people. Or even the chance to grow up.
But I'll thank God for this time. For fastforwarding me ahead of most of my peers. I know my Father, my big Dad, has a fantastic plans for me, a wonderful future for me.
I'll just take time to smell the roses, to enjoy each day that He made specially for me.
To my RMIT University friends, I had a load of fun in school.. I actually looked forward to lessons, to hanging out. (not to exams though) Friends for a season or whatever, it was a time well spent. Those who worked with me, watched my back.. Love you guys. I don't know how often we'll hang out again, or ever. Sure it sounds soppy, but there's always a tinge of sadness when the end of an era comes.
This is the end of an era in my life.
Education, over and out.
...Ok that's lame
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Buds
Left a ripple on Wednesday, January 16, 2008 @ 12:26 AM
Zach dropped by today to hang (probably just to take the scrubs dvds)
I'd had a crap day and was feeling like total shit. My dad was great, giving me advice and all earlier on, but i still felt troubled and shitty.
I finally got the chance to tell Zach about the shit that was bothering me.
So he just up and told me how insignificant these little setbacks were. They're so small! Jesus favours me so much that all these things don't matter anymore.
They can't stop the plans God has for me. They can't hold me down. They can't rob me of how I've been chosen to do great things.
What matters is how much Jesus loves me and has done for me! He's there for me 24/7, watching over me and his attention revolves all around me! Yeah! I'm not gonna sweat these small stuff. I'll just do what I have to do, knowing that Jesus loves me such that nothing else matters!
Zach reminded me to spend time with Daddy, to listen to His peace.. Something I've not done in a really REALLY long time.
Brother, I'm so glad you dropped by. Jesus must have sent you man. You're right, God works in different ways. I guess my Private Country Club buddies are here sometimes to show me how much He loves me..
Love you dudes
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P@#$$% Net.
Left a ripple on Monday, June 18, 2007 @ 7:59 PM
Yes. Pnet Broadband has been ripping me off for far too long. Today is the day, where I take back my freedom! Today, IS .... INDEPENDENCE DAY!
So i dialled the hotline.
"Our operators (all 2.5 of them) are busy at the moment. Please hold."
*classical music*
"Pacnet will no longer blabla GST blablabla"
*classical music*
"Our operators are busy at the moment. Please hold."
(Repeat Chorus)
Yes this stupid shit went on for almost 10 mins. I persisted. I wasn't going to let them win.
"Our opera... RING RING" Silence.
Me: Hello?
Operator: Pnet #$$%$# how may i help you?
Me: I'd like to cancel my broadband account. It's ridiculous. Your competitor offers double the speed for $15 less/month.
Operator: Sure, but you have to pay a termination fee of $40.
Me: Why? Can you waive it off? I don't see why I should pay. You guys have not offered me any perks for all the years I've used this service. How can you treat your customers this way?
Operator: Uhhh...I'm sorry sir, but we can't.
Me: Be..cause......?
Operator: Sorry, uhh... it's because... uhhh... we pay our competitor to use their lines, so we have to pay them to terminate.
Me:(thinking WTF!!!!) HUH? O...Kay..... Is my contract over anyway?
Operator: uhhh no you have to wait till 30 Nov and give us a 1 month advanced termination notice.
WHAT THE HELL!! in 2005 I REGISTERED FOR 2 FRIGGIN YEARS!
Me: Can i give you the termination notice now?
Operator: Sorry you can't.. You have to wait till 1 month before, and then send an email to wecare@pnet.com.sg.
Me: I didn't get you... what's the email again?
Operator: wecare@pnet.com.sg
Me: I'm sorry, what what @ Pnet?
Operator: We care.
Me: WHAT? Can you spell it for me?
Operator: W.E.C.A.R.E.@pnet.com.sg
Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
And yes, I'm still using Pnet to type this here.
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My First Real Estate Earnings!
Left a ripple on Saturday, April 28, 2007 @ 10:03 PM
I earned my first dollars in real estate today!
It was a 10% commission for assisting someone in closing her deal! That's a few easy hundred bucks for me! Yeah, true, maybe it's measly compared to what i predicted to be earning this weekend and i gave up a friday night's clubbing and a saturday morning's sentosa.
But it made me feel like my weekend didn't go to waste! I recouped my advertising expenditure and have a couple hundred bucks left as reward!
I wanna close my own deal tomorrow! Thank you Jesus, i know your favor is all upon me. Send the right people my way, and teach me what to say.
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G-Buy
Left a ripple on Sunday, March 25, 2007 @ 11:24 PM
What would you name an online-payment system?
How about a crude synonym for a popular area of the female anatomy?
Google and their G-Buy.
Woohoo.
Those ang mohs at the decision making board must really think that they are fuckin geniuses. This is probably what happened pre-launch.
Google Boss: Any suggestions for names for our new online payment system? I want it simple and yet recognizable as a Google product. And i want it sexy, military style.
Ball-Carrier: Ello Boss, you know, in choosing a name for our spankin' new payment system .....blablablabla.....handsome boss,.......blabla......G-string blabla..... we should use..... G-BUY!
Google Boss: Great job bootlicker! You ARE A GENIUS. GEE BUY!! I LOVE the sound of it already! It's getting to me, it's GETTING TO ME!!! I LOVE GEEE BUY!!!! I'm so fucking smart. G-Buy is gonna be SOOOO totally popular, I have an inkling especially so in Singapore!
Epilogue
Google has since launched their new payment system: Checkout.
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Do you believe in Reincarnation?
Left a ripple on Thursday, March 22, 2007 @ 10:33 PM
One night, I stabbed my fork into the plate of spinach, twirling the leaves round the fork ends like spaghetti.
And i saw THEM.... amidst the green jungle, little fish eyes were staring right back at me.. Many, MANY little fishy eyes! (the little silver fish tt are like ikan bilis la)
There are SO MANY OF THEM! So insignificant their little deaths were.
Then it struck me... For people who believe in reincarnation, what are the chances of you being reincarnated into one of these little fishies? There are billions and billions of these little guys!
So for you to be a human, you must really be FREAKING LUCKY to become one! Consider the billions of animal types, trillions of species of insect, and GAZILLIONS in number of any one species like 3892343211 billion cockroaches, 993219 trillion houseflies, 92321889743738 zillion bacteria.
So, if you believe in reincarnation, you very well better thank buddha/shiva/sunwukong that you're SO BLOODY MOTHERFARKING LUCKY to be one of the few 7 billion humans out of 99978765435679 gazillion X gazillion possible animals.
Or that reincarnation is just a load of bull.
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The first minutes of 2007
Left a ripple on Monday, January 01, 2007 @ 11:58 PM
Gave up the partying.
Gave up the pointless (but sometimes fun) squeezing with bangalas.
Gave up the other gathering.
Gave them all up,
but ushered in the first instance of 2007 with songs of praise to my Lover, my best Friend, the Lord of the universe
And yeah, the wasabi games rocked!
Hahahaha the reactions to the power of wasabi are PRICELESS
Like I said, too few guys will = no success in sabotaging!
Didn't even get a taste of it, IN UR FACE WAHAHAHA
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Left a ripple on Saturday, December 16, 2006 @ 2:08 AM
I heard this life was overated, but i hope it gets better as we go...
I;m here without you baby, you're just still on my lonely mind,
i think about you baby, and i dream about you all the time
im here without u babyt, but ur still with me in my dreams n tonight girl, its only you and me.......
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So Sweet
Left a ripple on Tuesday, November 21, 2006 @ 12:01 AM
A friend did something so sweet for me today. Although it's already like the 3rd time i've known this.
I already kind of knew it, still, that was really sweet of you...
I'm touched.
Thank you
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Left a ripple on Tuesday, October 24, 2006 @ 1:57 AM

Check out the vitamins I used to eat in the past and the vitamins i eat now (when i sleep late)... I remember when i used to sneak a couple of the little robots a day even though mum said: ONLY ONE. There's nothing like chomping down on robots after watching the matrix. Sweet revenge. love robovites. 
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21st Birthday Celebration
Left a ripple on Thursday, September 28, 2006 @ 2:11 AM
Thank you everyone for making my birthday such a BLAST! I had an awesome time, I'm so happy I spent my 21st Birthday this way.
SEE? Jesus wanted me to enjoy my 21st birthday more than I did. THATS WHY HE GOT RID OF MY ICT JUST FOR ME! Even when everything looked so bleak, He came through for me. That is my awesome God. It is because of the favor encircling me that my birthday celebration was even possible!
I've plugged the photos in a link on the left sidebar.
and MAN,
The presents
ROCKED!
Awesome DIGICAM from xiaoyi
Training Weights from my army brothers
Tshirts and Ties from my dear cg friends
rockin' new Crumpler Bag (yet to see it though, zach where is it?!)from my closest friends
Know-It-All Book to aid me in my quest to become the world's one-stop source of information, from my buddy zach
Alcohol and LOTS of cash from my Sec school chums
More cash from my dear relatives!
THEY ARE ALL THE THINGS I WANTED! THANK YOU ALL for the gifts, you don't know how much I appreciate you. Your generosity and love overwhelmed me
Every one of you has made an impact on my life along the way, and I thank Jesus for placing all of you in my life. I don't know what life would be like without you.
Thanks for being a part of my life.
MORE PHOTOS TO COME TO THIS BLOG, MY DIGICAM TOTALLY ROCKS MY SOCKS OFF
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IMA NERD
Left a ripple on Wednesday, September 20, 2006 @ 12:14 AM
Covenant Life
1st day of school today! Im gonna be a nerd! Im gonna study study study n pay attention in class!
STUDY STUDY I LOVE STUDYING!
I just found out that if you follow the lecture closely and scribble ur own notes next to the given notes YOU ACTUALLY ABSORB BETTER! I LOVE STUDYING!
I had 2 nerds beside me too! Thank God! Germaine even uses a laptop to type notes!
Ok, i dunno if they'll take too kindly to me calling them nerds, but WHATEVER! Whoever hangs out with me shall be a NERD
NERD ON!
But in the end, I still know that it's not my studying that's gonna get me that degree with distinction.
Unless the Lord builds a house, I labour in vain.
Yes, Thank U Daddy in heaven! I thank you for that distinction degree and my FANTASTIC career that sparks off from the saturated favor stuck on me.
In Jesus' name, AMEN.
NERD ON
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satan is pathetic.
Left a ripple on Tuesday, September 05, 2006 @ 3:38 PM
I am the favourite of the Creator of ALL THINGS. Nothing can stand in my way.
satan u better eat some shit, cuz ur lies are not gonna work.
The puny sucker has been trying to throw shit in my life, making me think i lose out on leave days, making me think im losing out on so many things to other people. LIES
now he comes with the lie to kill me... ICT on my birthday week. yes the WORST thing tt could happen in the army. the very thing ive been trying to escape is coming to haunt me on the WORST period of time. and because of the stupidest reasons. because other people chao keng and the pc is as inflexible as pencil. bend him n he breaks.
stupid loser devil trying to make me feel as if people of the world have it better than me...
NO.
Lies.
satan let me remind u tt ur place is in a lake of burning fire.
I have a life built on heavenly foundations. As GOD's FAVOURITE SON, everything is gonna work out TO MY ADVANTAGE. Situations contort and twist IN MY FAVOR.
I HAVE A SHIELD OF FAVOR ON ME. THE BEST THINGS HAPPEN TO ME
GOOD THINGS BELONG TO ME. PRAISE U JESUS CUZ U ROCK! i know im blessed.
I REIGN IN LIFE. if God is for me who can be against me? A satan? A robot? these i crush beneath my feet.
I AM A CHAMPION AND I RULE IN THIS LIFE.
Wait for my good news!
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Another Fire!! Got burnt this time.
Left a ripple on Thursday, August 31, 2006 @ 10:26 PM
Just came back from my course orientation...
They basically told us everything we already knew, and we left after all the talking, siamming from the library tour, (not a very good start in my opinion...)
(they thought it was boh liao... but im starting to think it might have been useful...)
But i was hungry! So we went the adam's road hawker centre, me, mitsuye and her friends.
Mitsuye and i ordered prawn noodles, which were quite alright, huge prawns and all.
You know the chilli powder they provide? Well after i was done with my noodles, I dumped my saucer of left over chilli powder into my bowl.
Hey! There's a little prawn leg in my mouth. I'll just spit it into the bowl!
PUI.
That little gust of wind created a spinning vortex of air, molecules of chilli powder swirling in the tornado...
Flying...into......my right eye.
FIRE!! FIRE!!!! FIRE!!!!!!!!!!!! MY EYE!!! MY EYE!!!!!!!
Moral of the Story: Never put leftover chilli powder into your bowl when you are going to be spitting out prawn legs.
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21 click, then a fire!
Left a ripple on Sunday, August 27, 2006 @ 11:28 PM
Covenant Life
Just ran 21 click today for the army half marathon....
with no exercise for the past few months, 4 hours of sleep and a minute of rushed warmups, i cramped my right leg...
so i limped ala Terry Fox, and i was so damn fast! what an inspiring hero! 1km later my left thigh cramped. Then i walked... OH JESUS 21 CLICK IS LONG!!! for me at least...
with a timing of about 3.5 hours, zach says other people could have run a full 42km marathon and dropped by at kallangs macdonalds to have lunch and wait for me.
running is an exercise from the pit of hell. cramps your muscles, punctures your lungs, kills your brain, damages your kneecaps. all with minimal aerobic benefits. I THINK RUNNING SHOULD BE BANNED. only walking allowed.
why do so many people like to run? I guess they're freaks...
THE FIRE
Then i went and there was a HUGE fire burning somewhere near what looked like potong pasir! Black smaoke billowing into the atmosphere, probably killing insects in the way woohoo!
Well others would probably have called 995, but i called it anyway cuz i wanted to see what it was like hahaha. A totally boring conversation i had with the hotline guy.
So i told him bye, you boring shit.
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madam stupid kambing show
Left a ripple on Wednesday, August 23, 2006 @ 12:39 AM
Covenant Life
Xiaoyi n uncle gary came over, and channel 5 was showing this stupid madam bukit kambing show starring patricia mok...
So patricia mok was doing something stupid, like pushing a baby in a basket to the middle of a swimming pool.
I had been smsing, so i looked up and asked:
"What the heck is she doing?!"
xiaoyi, looking bored:
"Trying to kill me."
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Bling Bling Song
Left a ripple on Sunday, July 09, 2006 @ 5:00 AM
Covenant Life
The Blink Blink Song! They played it earlier at campus today... I thought it was awesome and so fun!
I actually hold this song close to my heart, cuz it was one of the catalysts that really started the recovery process around mid last year. I think it happened at the ben gen camp.. I remember still being quite bitter, and feeling sian at the first few praise songs, but when this song came up, it touched my heart so much that tears just streamed down my face, making me choke on the words.
I must have seemed wierd, cuz this song is so upbeat and cheerful, with everyone happily singing and smiling away. But at that moment, i felt EVERY single lyric, and i saw meaning in the song like i'd never seen before when i sang it. God was really telling me that it was all okay, and that nothing that happens can stop Him from showing me that the battle is NOT over yet, cuz when all i hope for seems to crumble, HIS hope remains.
Here it is! THE BLINK BLINK SONG!
You put a gleam in my eye and put a skip in my step,
when my hope is gone, Lord Your hope remains yet.
You put a song in my mouth and a sword in my hand,
My heart overflows with the goodness of the Lord
Hopeless and lost, I wandered through the night,
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide.
But Your love broke through, the hardness of my heart.
And now this joy I feel, it cannot be denied!
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Left a ripple on Wednesday, July 05, 2006 @ 2:32 AM

Check them out! They're feigning singing passion! Had to rip this off zach cuz he din send me e freaking photos! 
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Kara Yong Yuan OK!
Left a ripple on
Woohoo! Reminiscing about last week's karoake session haha. I seldom go for karaoke, but how can you pass up the $150 in kbox vouchers?
Jioing some of my best friends in the world, Joseph e gardener, Zach e troll, Derek aka Shit-ian, Mr Kelvin Pikachu Nah and Ladiya aka Xena warrior princess, we hit kbox for a posh looking room at selegie. MY, WAS IT FUN!
We started off singing some bo-ring chinese songs, or at least TRYING TO, until we rocked on with the ENGLISH SONGS with the fake mtvs, complete with pirated playboy models and imitation actors shot at the esplanade/singapore river/etc. EVEN THE LYRICS WERE WARPED HAHAHAA! that just made it funnier!
We did 'Yesterday' with our own improvised hand actions (the really sad looking kind you get to see at mambo nights), jumped up and down like fools to Toto's 'Africa' and danced to backstreet boys (robot actions and moonwalking included)! And man, can Lydia sing!
There was also Hip Hop Mania with a Jay chou song (the one with a lot of picture taking sounds CHEKCHEE!) which got all of us into Eminem mode with our imaginary mics and gangsta gestures.
We rapped nonsense and gibberish to replace the intelligible chinese words.
What goes on in the private rooms are pretty much supposed to be kept private, and i've probably let out a tad too many details which might actually be detrimental to society's perception of us.............. but WHO CARES?!
We picked out a song: 500 miles, thinking it was Vanessa Carlton's thousand miles (the 'White Chicks' number)and it TURNED OUT TO BE THE OLDIE WITH THE CHOO CHOO TRAIN HAHAHAHA!!!
Lord I'm one, Lord i'm two, Lord i'm three, Lord i'm four, Lord i'm five hundred miles away from home! ahahahahaha
We all really had a blast, with joseph going berserk at the end, growing his very own microphone in his throat.
An awesome time really... Can't wait for the next time we get together for another no-holds barred session of really zonked out whacked fun!
Thank you Long John Silver for the vouchers! we still got 50 bucks left
Love you guys you're all really precious to me.
(fyi that last statement does not include captain long john)
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Is Something missing?
Left a ripple on Sunday, July 02, 2006 @ 11:23 PM
I was just scrolling through my friendster, when i came across a message i sent out to a stranger girl who was having a bit of depression (or something).
I can't believe I wrote this...
May 2004
Hi p-----, my name is ryan. First of all, let me
clarify that i'm not trying to get fresh or
anything. If you will listen to what i have to
say, it could change your life.
I SELDOM go through my friend's pages, much less
read their testimonials. But I happened to see a
your testimonial on a friend's gf's page, saying
that you feel something is missing in your life.
Many people feel this way.
The fact is, something IS missing. Every human
being has a void in his/her heart. And it is in
a shape of a cross. Only Jesus can fill in that
void in our hearts. This emptiness can only b
filled with that love Christ has given to u.
(Before you delete this post thinking i'm just
another 'Christian trying to convert you', stop,
just listen to what i have to say.)
People try to fill this void with whatever they
can. Parties, clubbing, drinking, 1night stands,
relationships (even abusive ones), drugs etc..
All these things give but a temporary
satisfaction, whether with good or bad
consequences. In the end, the person still goes
back with the feeling of emptiness.
Maybe you're like this. You go out with your
friends, party and laugh. But when you go back
home and you're alone, you bury your face in
your pillow and cry. You feel depressed. In the
dead of the night, everyone is sleeping, you
feel like you're all alone by yourself in this
world. No one really cares how you feel, no one
understands you.
You have no explanation. You don't know whats
wrong. The problem is not something to know. The
problem is WHAT you don't know. You need to know
Jesus.
Jesus loves you SO much that He laid down His
life for you. It is not to be just a mental
knowledge but rather a heartfelt knowledge for
us. He loves us. It's displayed on that act on
that cross where Jesus was crucified.
No greater love. No man can ever give you this
love. No friend can ever emulate this love only
God can give. No family can ever love you like
He can.
I don't know if you'll be laughing when you see
this, thinking i'm some kind of psycho. But I
feel that God is prompting me to take this time
and type this message to you. What I can tell
from this is how much God loves you. He doesn't
want you to be in this pit of depression. He
wants to take you into His arms, to love you, to
protect you, to tell you everything is ok.
If you'll only let Him.
Just say this aloud and mean it from your heart:
Lord Jesus, I believe that you died for me on
that cross to save me from all sin, past,
present, and future. And on the third day, You
rose again, completing the work.
Father God, I am now Your child and You see me
as righteous as Your Son Jesus. Thank You for
loving me. In Jesus name, amen.
Let me tell you, I was like you, questioning the
emptiness. I know many others who are like that
too. But you know, Jesus transformed my life.
Now I am always filled with joy. Alone on my
bed, I know He looks at me, loving me every
moment. I still cry, but now my tears come only
because I cannot understand how He can love me
so much. Tears of joy, satisfaction. His perfect
love covers me, and I want to know him more, and
more, and more.
No one compares with Him. Jesus can love you
like you're the only person on this earth. He is
God after all.
Let Him love you. He already does. =)
-Ryan
1 year later, one small incident turned my life upside down.
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